Weather was great today eh?

Work's entering the busiest time of the year, but I'm enjoying it because I love what I do (for the most part). I'm also good at it (bragging again). It also makes the days go by faster leaving me saying cliched crap like "I can't believe it's Wednesday already!"

Last night Nate and I watched There Will be Blood finally. I dug it. I'm glad there really wasn't a lot of blood.

This morning I saw a physical therapist. You can read the full description of it on my marathon blog but in short, it's my fault for not stretching better and sooner, it can thankfully and hopefully be solved by skipping my 16 mile run Saturday and doing a regimen of stretches the therapist showed me. I'm giving it two weeks to improve before I go back.

I went to H&M after work. I'm so sick of my clothes. Almost all of them are from San Francisco days meaning they are over two years old. Some go back to Madison. No excuse. Ok, money excuse. My clothes are so tattered now and I'm so bored that I have to do something. My trip to H&M was not fruitful. I found one light weight sweater (read: can't wear for months still). I was too hungry to go to other stores. Boo.

I talked to my dad tonight. He likes to say "anything else going on?" about ten times per phone call. Normally I have nothing, so I say "nope that's about it" but today I felt like something else was going on or that I had done something worth telling a parent about but I can't remember what it is. Seems like maybe its something important? Who knows.

I'm meeting an old Madison friend for dinner tomorrow night. I haven't seen her in probably 4 years! Should be fun and also odd to catch up. Guess such events will occur more often as I get older.

Conscientious Nerd Clothing

Finally got around to ordering my shirt this evening. Feminists and Nerds 1, My wallet 0

check it out

I wonder if my job would let me wear it? Probably not.

retail therapy and therapy

Wednesday I took a vacation day because I just couldn't handle the thought of sitting at work for 8 hours doing nothing. My friend Andy has the week off from teaching (Spring Break!), so we went on a suburban shopping excursion to the premium outlets in Aurora (yes, where Wayne's World takes place). It was a strange mix of very midwestern outlet mall and then high end stores like Armani and Diesel outlets. I realized earlier this week that I have no clothes for this spring or summer, and that I was still wearing clothes I bought when I lived in Madison which was 6 years ago. Sick! I'm not that body shape anymore nor should I be dressing like I'm 21. So I splurged a bit and got: 3 skirts (one black mini, one knee length denim, one amazing herringbone/tweedish a-line), 2 shirts for summer, 1 adorbs cardigan, 2 bras, underwear, 3 pairs of socks, one pair of work bermuda-style shorts. So much! It was really fun to take all the tags off and hang new things in my closet for the first time in a long time. I also ordered a great pair of canvas skimmers/flats for summer feet happy time. Now if only the weather would accommodate my new clothes and stop snowing!

Wednesday night I saw Sleep Out at the Beat Kitchen. I was really nervous to go as it was the first time I've seen anybody since 'the breakup'. There was a competing show last night, so fortunately (?) I didn't have to see too many people and feel stupid and worthless and unwanted. It's all in my head though, I'm aware, nobody acted or treated me stupidly. Stupid head.

Speaking of a stupid head, today I met with a therapist. I haven't seen one in Chicago before. There's a funny story about accidentally calling some freaky religious psychotherapy group, but have no fear, I found a much cooler place to go that has feminist therapists. I liked the woman, but usually it takes awhile to know if they are really good. She seems to think that it'll be about 12 weeks to really make major headway on my "goals" which apparently are:

-stop being jealous/hurt when people don't invite me to do things but invite others
-stop being a control freak/mother to Nate
-stop thinking everybody hates me or thinks I'm not cool or that people 'owe me' for whatever reason I think that (I don't know why I think that, hence the therapy)

It was sort of weird to be on a therapist's couch again. My last session was almost exactly two years ago, when I decided to move to Chicago and start anew, and here I am having many of the same problems I had then with regards to control/perfection/depression. Guess I'm stuck with this for life. How's that for depressing, that I'm just permanently damaged and will spend my entire life having to be conscious of how good or bad I've got it under control.

Tomorrow I'm doing dinner and a movie with Nate, and Saturday I'm doing crafty/sewing day with Wendy. Should be a pretty ok weekend.

spending spree

So my insurance pay out came. I immediately paid off my Chase card with the horrid interest rate, as well my Ikea card that I opened to save 10 percent when I moved here (and because I had no money for furniture in the first place). Woot! Two less bills! But that's what my debt blog is for. Onto the goods.

I also received a VERY surprise 500 dollar check in the mail yesterday that was not for my birthday nor for "services rendered." So basically I went from being in the red to having 5,000 to going back down again since I'm paying of bills and getting new crap I need.

What new crap?

New phone!



My current cell phone only works when it's plugged in. Not very handy huh? I've had it for two years and it was time to renew my contract anyway. I got a good deal on this puppy above, which officially makes me a "2 way freak" as it flips TWO WAYS. Wonders never cease.

I also bought the 30 gig ipod. For those of you that know me, I've been an iRiver fanatic since the beginning. Sadly, they don't make any HD mp3 players anymore so I had to move on. I didn't want to get an ipod for the longest time, but Graham convinced me that it is OKAY to convert to the masses. You will never catch me rocking white ear buds and a monochrome outfit in front of a neon background though. Have no fear.

Up next: new eyeglasses. I haven't had my eyes checked in five years.

Then: nothing, all into the credit cards.

It feels weird to spend money after a year of nothing. It seems like I'm always swimming in money or drowning in debt. Technically I am still drowning in debt, just a little less now.