the 'bute

I'm feeling good today. The five days of feeling like i was on coke/speed from "the 'bute" as I will call wellbutrin from now on are over. Today, despite waking up at 5 am, again thanks to the 'bute, I feel very alert and chipper. It makes me a bit worried that I can function so well off so many days of little sleep (I hardly sleep at all on this drug). Don't speed freaks stay awake for days at a time then get seriously sick as a result? I've heard this speed-like feeling dissipates after a few weeks, so I'll keep at it. If anything, its giving me good motivation to go running after work. What would be ideal is zero meds, but in the past 12 years of life I've learned thats not happening. I was off meds for one year here or one year there, and it was horrid. Again, my whole family has depression, so I was probably born wrong.

Because that will probably never happen, hopefully I can pick which drug I want to be on. It seems pretty clear that the prozac wasn't cutting it anymore, even pre-breakup. Maybe I can get off that and just stick with the 'bute.

Also, I look totally adorbs today (love my outfit, bothered to do my hair), and I have nobody fun to show it off to. Just boring co-workers.

Tonight is Hills chat night with my BFLs (besties for life) Kevin, Matt, Kristin, Paul etc. Always a fun time 'singing' Hillary Duff to each other via a google talk chat room!