it's a crime, i never told you about the diamonds in your eyes

Man, a bunch of years ago my buddies were telling me, "you have to listen to Black Heart Procession" and I did. Never got super into it, despite numerous attempts. And maybe now I know why - you have to be really fucking depressed to love it. I saw them over a year ago at the Touch and Go 25th party, in the freezing rain and it was awesome. Then I sort of forgot how much I loved it, and now that I keep forgetting to use all my e-music downloads each month I just blew all 30 on these buddies. Fits perfectly with that whole feeling of wow I have nobody in Chicago gee thanks a lot depression.

I saw my psychiatrist this morning. I hate that guy. Such a douche, but whatever, it's too hard to find a new dude and switch all my shit. He's now putting me on TWO medications because you know, I'm an invalid and one anti-depressant won't cut it apparently.

Seriously, this is not where I am 'supposed' to be at near 27. It was two years ago this week I broke up with Jake and started planning my move here. If I had known I was going to be even more miserable here than I was there I wouldn't have bothered going into massive debt and moving to a fucking cold ugly unforgiving city. A change of scenery never works, and I should have known that.