Shocked! To think I used to pity you...

Spent a leisurely day yesterday napping and watching both the Cubs and Sox ruin their leads. Way to go guys. In fact, I got so fed up with my Sox I stopped watching them. It was disgusting. Then I got dinner with Andy and Jane at Fernando's, and later headed to Soup's to watch a Bollywood film.

I couldn't fall asleep last night, partially because I kept my windows open. You'd think that would feel nice and be good for the air in here but Audrey barks at every single sound when the windows are open. And thanks to Audrey I still woke up early today with licks to my face begging me to feed her. Audrey, you're lucky I love you more than anything and anyone on earth. I'd never respond to a human licking me on the face for breakfast, then pick up their turds when they crap outside.

Just ran over to the coffee shop, and learned that since they changed ownership they don't have any newspapers anymore! I was looking forward to a bagel/egg sandwich, coffee and the NYT on a Sunday. I'll have to settle for the Sox game in an hour.

I need to go get those sticky traps I had last year to catch bugs, but I have a feeling its not going to get done today unless I'm super motivated.

I've been feeling really socially awkward lately. I get the impression that everything I say when I'm out with people sounds really stupid or not cool or asinine. Then I get more stressed out over it, end up overcompensating with nervous blabber and it only gets worse. Maybe I just need to hang out with losers from now on. Or figure out how to not feel judged, as I'm sure it's all in my own nervous head. Or maybe I just really am a total loser and don't deserve my friends? Not sure how to fix myself to stop feeling this way. This happened in SF for awhile, went away when I moved here, and unfortunately is coming back. I've also been having mild panic attacks recently, about once a week. That means I should probably figure out what's causing them and if my anxiety meds are off or something.